Love

as i read your words
all i can see
is the sickness
writhing inside me
a deep dark pit
of jealousy and rage
i’m going to take action todayso I pull myself apart
i reach inside
all at the urging
of my darker side
as I open up I can finally see
the cancer I feel growing in me

and as I perform
this self surgery
I repeat the mantra of me
i’m better alone
i’m better dead
I dont need this all in my head

so I pull myself apart
i reach inside
all at the urging
of my darker side
as I open up I can finally see
the cancer I feel growing in me

and I rip and tear
to get it all out of there
no more will I live
with that I dont need
no more will I live
on my knees

yet what I’m removing
its a part of me
will I ever be rid?
will I ever be free?
I dont know
so we’ll wait and see

so I pull myself apart
i reach inside
all at the urging
of my darker side
as I open up I can finally see
the cancer I feel growing in me

© 2005 Rob Jones